Friday, January 20, 2006
I don't like it when my appetite wakes me up before the alarm in the morning, especially on a day off. I am aware it was not hunger, but my appetite, because I felt full in my stomach etc. I really didn't want to eat and I had my morning ritural to go through before I ate breakfast. My deeds were all in the back of my head. I was being led by a strong desire or inclination to whet (sharpen, excite) my appetite. I've made a discovery for myself. I had a good bit of chocolate before I went to bed. That had ignited a craving for sugar making me feel a strong desire to eat even though I was not hungry. To keep me from eating the wrong instant gratification foods or just from overeating in an addictive manner; I reluctantly microwaved two hot dogs, no buns, and fed the need, to stop the distraction of said appetite. The controlling feeling is gone. Now I feel as if I can get back into the drivers seat! When will I learn my lesson and stay completely away from sweets???