Friday, August 26, 2005


It's been three weeks since I've lost my momentum. I just can't get motivated again to change my bad eating habits, increase my activity, journal, and return to my supportive group. It's the disappointment in myself that is holding me back. I can forgive anyone in the blink of an eye, but I never do the same for myself. Now is a good time to start. sis-boom-bah rah-rah

Friday, August 19, 2005

good girl

Today I chased the bread cart looking for sweets to take home for the weekend. Only one coffee cake was there and I grabbed it up quickly. I saw an old lady, like me, and offered it to her instead. I prevented a lot extra calories from clinging to my already obese stature. I am having my usual sweet cravings and I feel like I need a fix. I hope I don't have another opportunity to indulge my whims the rest of this week. We'll see how it goes by Monday.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005


This food-a-holic here, fell off of the wagon after three months of daily increased activity and three days a week in the Wellness Weight Room at the Senior Citizen Center. I modified my eating habits a little bit. I lost 42 pounds, my all over pain had decreased, and I only had to use my walker for long distances.
I reluctantly went on vacation with my family for five days and eventually I lost the ground I had gained in that three month period. I lost control of my program and my desire to keep motivated. I don't feel like climbing back up on the wagon. It's been six additional days so far of sedentary living, being disappointed in myself, overeating, and hiding from the scale. I have become tolerant of my lax attitude. The fat is here to stay. What I miss most of all is the energy I had then and my zest for life. Alas, woe is me. Somebody, kick my butt, I need a jump start!

Friday, August 05, 2005


I haven't told you yet about my good efforts. I go to the Wellness Room at the Senior Citizen Center in Rancho Cucamonga. It is new and very busy with more than 1,ooo people registered to use the room. I started there, with my walker, three months ago. I go three times a week for about 30 to 45 minutes. It's working. The days I don't go there, I find myself sedentary, weak, in pain, and sleepy. It's as if I need that jump start to complete a normal day. I have been going there for three months now. I push myself many times to do my routine but I am never sorry once I get started. I have lived a sedentary life style for over ten years, things are turning around for me!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005


I've lost 3 1/2 pounds yesterday at my weigh-in. I put it as a figure instead of a written number, it looks like more to me. Who am I kidding? It still wasn't an honest loss. I used all of the tricks up my sleeves. I fasted again for seventy-two hours, I wore slippers, etc.,etc.etc.. I was thinking about trying to do a week of low carbohydrates. I heard that the Atkins Diet Company is filing for bankruptcy. Since Dr. Atkins had died people are focused on the fat in that sort of restricted diet, and have all agreed that it is too much high cholesterol. Along with the fact that vegetables and fruits are very limited, anyone knows they have a high vitamin content and also they have a good source of fiber. Well, what's a week of experimenting going to cost me anyway? I really haven't been doing things as you should in a proper kind of life style change, yet. I only incorporated two months ago into my program an active life stlye in moderation. It is working pretty good for me at this time. I started at 293 pounds and I am presently at 256 pounds, hooray!