Thursday, May 25, 2006

diet promise

Repetition is the only form of permanence that nature can achieve.

I can talk the talk but it is time to go back to walking the talking. For two months now, no exercises, no full blown commitments, no program, no continuance, on again and off again tries, passing the buck, giving excuses, using food to punish myself or cover up my hurts, and buying taking and thinking of food every chance I get. "SLAP!"

Snap yourself out of it and move on! I know how to keep appointments and promises. I am worth a promise to myself. I know the holiday weekend is coming up and tonight is an opportunity to be around goodies but I am going to promise myself one thing a day, to start the ball rolling towards a change in my life style again. I can't reach a destination if I don't have a goal. Just make it past tonight and you're on your way. I promise myself no salty popcorn and no sugar laden items shall pass my lips tonight!!!!!!!!

Wow, I just took a big deep breath, as if a load has been lifted off of my shoulders. I felt overwhelmed with backsliding and losing all of the ground I gained in good habits. I can do a tiny step at a time to catch up and excel my past efforts. I will call this "DAY ONE." Tomorrow is a new day so therefore there will be a new promise to myself because each day has a possibility for a new challenge. Let's say I'm on the wagon and if I don't keep my promise to myself continually and fall of of the wagon then I have to get back up on the wagon and start counting from the beginning again. The curiosity has intrigued me. I wonder how high I can count up to without starting over again? I like numbers, games, lists and goals. This sounds as if it may turn out to be fun.

I know I'm acting stupid and silly but I have been under a heavy strain and it's time to lighten up my mood. I have felt blue stagnant and helpless. Not at all like the Blue Man Group in Vegas, that show was so cool and funny. See ya........

4 comments:

Chana said...

I love that phrase that you had in your post: 'Repetition is the only form of permanence that nature can achieve.'..what a beautiful saying...

It never occurred to me and as i'm sure not anyone else that you are being stupid or silly, but human. A human who has had much to deal with and who suffers...We have all been there, so please don't beat yourself up anymore.


Blue Man Group: i have seen them on the tv but never live, that must have been something funny to see...

Hugs..

jan said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving such a nice comment.

Have you tried dog walking for weight control? Dogs give exercise and are better than comfort food for comfort.

BTW, do you have a firm plan for dealing with your 34 year old son? :)

Dena said...

I can understand being under stress and needing to snap yourself out of it. Good luck!

Sasha said...

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