Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Today my mind is in a sluggish frame. I don't feel like talking about dieting or working it. Lately I've been nipping at the extra large flavored-coffee cup, cola, and the ever tempting chocolate. A little here and a little there and all of a sudden, headaches. Don't tell me I'm hooked on caffeine again. All I wanted from the stimulant was a little nudge. I got it alright, but then along came the urge followed by the crave and withdrawal. Will I ever learn that any addiction that is overcome has to be followed by continual maintenance. Oh yes, I've had a few that have controlled my life and put me in the wrong direction. I was greedy when it came to smoking, drinking, gambling, pain pills, diet pills, caffeine, even sex, dancing, food especially sugars, and now computers. I could never get enough of anything. Let's see, is that obsessive, compulsive, or addictive? Who cares? I guess I'll always be a "foodie" but at least all are gone even though a few have surfaced. I am an overcomer, I do work a 12 step program when I feel necessary, I strive for a no-fail environment, I get support and continue to be informed concerning the overweight, and soon as the flavored coffees are gone from my house the road to being clean will be traveled once again. I wish myself good luck and to anyone else who struggles with letting go of things that could hurt them. See ya!