Thursday, April 20, 2006


I don't know which is worse, the ups and downs on the scale, or the ups and downs in life. They both can cause an early death. Now I hear it's better to be heavier. What happened to the on set of diabetes, heart diseases, and all of the other known health issues that arise from complications of obesity? I do know for sure the yo-yo syndrome is not good for the heart. I guess there is a distinction amongst "Phat" words. Heavy, fat, and obese, they all conjure up a negative image in my mind. I missed my weigh-in this week, I know I had a loss, I hope I can hold on to it for the next meeting. I missed posting yesterday, my (scale) of life has had a huge (gain) and the stress is taking its toll. All of a sudden getting healthier by losing weight is not a priority in my life at this time. The heart can only cope with so much. The Lord knows that and that is why He says come unto me all ye that are burdened and heavy laden, and I will give you rest. I don't know if this problem will be resolved to all's satisfaction or I will be at rest in a box. For nine days I could hardly eat or sleep and all of a sudden I'm at the other end of the spectrum. Oh, the sweet sound of going back to being balanced again!

Love is not a feeling, it is a decision!


Alice said...

I've enjoyed your blog and feel for the things you're going through. Hang in there.


Chana said...

"Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,
and finds it in your presence that life is worth while,
so when your lonely.... remember it's true,
somebody somewhere is thinking of you." Author Unknown.

Whatever life has thrown at you to throw you off balance, i'm so sorry for 'it' and i hope you can find the peace of heart and mind and soul that you need. Hang onto Our Lord, as i know you do, He will make it better. No more talking of death, even with a broken heart and a heavy burden-We go when He calls and not before. My grandma always reminds me, when my cross gets too heavy, that He only give us what He knows we can handle. I often would argue the point but really He knows best. So believe that whatever this is, you can handle aslong as you have Him.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”

Mary Stevenson

I love you. My family loves you. Hugs and kisses from all of us. Hang in there.