boot

I had a half of a pound gain last night. Time to boot myself again. I need a swift kick right out of my comfort zone. O f course I have my excuses for the fraction gain. The scale was teeter- tottering and I just accepted the first number seen instead of waiting for a complete stand still to see if it would stop and I did survive the two birthday parties and dinners in five days without a significant gain. I get so defensive with excuses about a lot of things. I heard something new in analyzing my eating disorders, per say, at the meeting. Nothing like blaming someone else to ease the guilt off of ones self. People with a guilty or "bigger is better" eating style can usually find the root of it in their childhood and the attitudes toward food that developed when they were young. "You have to eat everything on your plate because children in some countries are starving." "Clean the plate because it is a sin to waste food." "Eat some more it will make you healthy and strong." Did that instructions really stick with me? Is that why I eat everything on my plate whether I am hungry or not? I must remember what I eat or don't eat doesn't affect anyone but myself! Speaking of eating has made me think of eating, I guess I'll go have breakfast. I'll make only one piece of toast this time with butter ( I'm sorry, self, butter is hard to give up right now.)